The Only feeling I did not confess was that I knew You were here somewhere you only knew and the people you are with, but I could not get near you or feel you or even hear you. I tried to accept the fact that you are gone and I seriously wanted to believe that lie and fool myself but it was just too hard to swallow, it was huge and we both knew its a lie.A lonely girl definition is not identified properly, for a girl to live in loneliness is nothing like shes gonna be in a place which is completely empty, thats never the right description, she can never do captivation wither its by her or by force. That kinda girl is always with the crowed, she is very social, very opened and very in control, shes also very smart and amazingly lucky. Shes a master in fooling the world, she knows all the tricks and she like to flip heads. But the nickname lonely came from the smallest place she owns which is her heart. A place she loved to take care of by herself and don't allow untrusted people to interfere or get close to her heart, so they won't break or destroy it, however that place needs a mess from time to time to learn how to fix it again, or better yet a person who would make it stronger and treat it as his own. I try to be lost in the crowed, and I try to change my thoughts, thinking I might be happier, thinking I can forget about you, but still I wish you were here so I can see your joy which would make me smile, laugh and forget everybody around, cause all matter to me is you..We say it only words and it easily to be ignored but sometimes this idea about words are wrong, words can be sharper than a knife, it can be used and adjusted to hurt others and leave them with damaged broken self-esteem, plus angry mad raged feelings which could quickly lead them to almost kill more than a person. People can be good by shutting up, but they still can shout and be very right. Not all wounds are healable, some can get fixed from the very beginning, some take time until it fully recovered and there is a lot that can’t ever get fixed.We spend a life time wondering who to trust and who to throw in our black list and block forever. In this while, we give trust to some by look mainly because in our superficial society defines personality by looks. People who worth trust are really rare and thats a fact was born long time ago, anyway we don't believe in scripts other people wrote about what they saw in their lives. We trust either too many or too little, and sometimes we lose trust to so many including ourselves . In each case its very much wrong. Its wise to make people trust you a lot but don't trust too many. Family shouldn't always be trust worthy, Friends and enemies are sometimes very close we get fooled by both, its hard to identify which is which.